Friday, 9 November 2012

The Job Search Continues…

This whole looking for a job thing is the absolute worst.
My emotions are all over the place. One minute, I am feeling confident and determined, the next annoyed and discouraged and the next very helpless.

Why can’t I get a job?
Ooops wrong question, I can get a job. I have actually been offered four jobs in the past last year. I accepted one, turned down the others. Zero have been utilizing my education, skills and experience.

What do people do when they haven’t found the job of their dreams?
Or do they just wait….and wait…and wait….
I have to improve my job search, get past my inability to network, maybe stop underselling myself, finish that Marketing Course, or quit doing work for free, but I’m not giving up on my dreams. There is no alternative. No Plan B. No consideration of working a job I hate.
Maybe this is what they call perseverance. Or stupidity. The good thing, the blessed-by-God thing, is that I don’t have to do anything else. I don’t have children depending on me. All I have is time to try and try and try some more.

Eventually, it will pay off.

                                          One day, I will get a job  and I will look like this.


Wednesday, 7 November 2012

Battling with myself: What I know vs What I Feel

Lately living with me has been a battle... all things happening at once:

This is what I KNOW and not what I FEEL at this moment L  - I KNOW

I’m strong, happy, satisfied, successful, loving, kind, giving, serene, joyful and on the right path so I will let the emotions run their course, do their work and lay the demons to rest. It’s a moment to exercise some patience with myself - a chance to be kind and let myself cry on my own shoulder. Lord knows I need my own pity party.

This is how I Feel - I am experiencing every negative emotion known to mankind right now .I am angry, disappointed, hateful, revengeful, frustrated, sad, anxious, battered, lost, grieving... I am human..... I am allowed to...

One thing is certain, the road I am on, the lessons am learning, will forever be grateful for them